Ok, so I know those of you who know me well must be expecting me to write something (but I don’t know how you could expect much considering it’s been about 5 months). I wish it were better, but really, it just sucks that we can’t go back in time.
So I’m up late at night and can’t sleep. I’m laying in bed thinking about (or worrying about) how everything in my life is going to work out. I think I do this way too much. I know I should have more faith in what my Heavenly Father has planned for me, but for some reason, I just can’t relax. So I think, “I really need to read my scriptures.” Rather then turning on the lamp on my nightstand and bothering Charlie, I came to my desk to read. Now, instead of reading, I’m writing. Maybe I should read first and I’ll get better inspiration. I think in a way though, writing helps clear my head, and maybe helps me to figure out what it is I want to know. I don’t know why, but I feel inspired... Like I need to write down how I’m feeling and what’s going through my head at the most historical day I’ve ever experienced in my lifetime (at least that I can remember). Some would maybe say, later, that it would have been cool to be a part of it. I’m not so sure. I guess there is one positive outlook... My kids are too young to really know what’s happening. Although, I’m sure it will be so much worse for them when they are older. Actually, I KNOW it will be, and that scares me. Through the months, I think I have KNOWN it would happen, but I still had faith, or doubts, whatever you want to call it, that maybe it wouldn’t turn out the way I feared it would. Who knows, maybe, just maybe, I will look back on this entry and think... “Hey, it wasn’t that bad after all. Everything turned out, and it’s alright.” Somehow, I doubt that will happen. I think I will be ok, relatively speaking, but the world as we know it, will never be the same. I guess it’s all just part of the bitter end and who knows when that will happen. It’s all part of it though. I fear the trials I and my family will suffer because of our own stupid decisions, and also because of the decisions of others. The thing that sucks the most is that I can live with my own mistakes, but I have a hard time dealing with or handling things I cannot change. Maybe somewhere along this road I will learn to be my best self and not worry about things I cannot change (like the saying goes). I should. Much easier said than done.
So this moment in history... How much will it change things? I think we’ll find out sooner than later, but who really knows? What’s weird is that in some way, even though it puts a huge knot in my stomach, it is kinda cool to witness a HUGE and remarkable point in history. Too bad I’m not black, huh? Just kidding, it is still a major accomplishment, although, I think I would have rather seen a woman in the white house. That would have been much cooler and way less detrimental. I think I could live with it all (obviously, I have to, but for making a point), if we could have at least picked up a few seats in congress. But NO, stupid, idiotic, ignorant democrats who have no idea what they’re doing and what they’re voting for, have to be like little puppets and give their vote away, or maybe we should call it greed and misery. Either way, they are still ignorant. How in the heck could someone like Obama win this election? And not to mention, by the huge margin in which he did? It absolutely boggles my mind. With all of his “acquaintances”, his record, his rhetoric, his associations, his far leftism, socialistic beliefs and the list goes on. I am in awe. Truly amazed that we Americans can be so blinded by color, words (not backed by actions) and “looks” (although, I personally do not think he is attractive at all). Were it not for his color and “charisma” he most definitely would not have won (I think without his color, he would not have won). Instead of focusing on WHAT he said, we focused on how he spoke. His words were all scripted lies. Did we ever even find out what his REAL relationship IS with Bill Ayers? I think NOT! What about Khalidi? What about his birth records in Hawaii... What does he have to hide? I can’t believe the we as Americans are putting up with this crap... If he has something to hide, the federal government should step in and demand his birth records; WE SHOULD DEMAND THEM!. WHAT THE HECK? We just walk in silence and overlook EVERYTHING this man says or does. How much more controlled can we be? I’m afraid, much, much more!
I have thought so many times, if Barac Obama wins this election, I hope he screws things over so bad that all those who voted for him kick themselves in the butt and see how stupid they were. But then I think of how bad things would have to be for democrats to diss their candidate (since they have no morals), and it SCARES me. This can’t possibly be the end of the world could it? I swear, I almost believe it.
Revelations 13:5
“And there was given unto him a mouth speaking great things and blaspehmies; and the power was given unto him to continue forty and two months.”
You can read the whole chapter and try and make sense of it, but really, it’s all so confusing. I’m not sure if I really believe it, but he totally fits the bill.
I guess we’ll see in July of 2012. Maybe it’s just the beginning of the end.
I am scared of what this man can do.
Scared of what he will do.
So let’s save the US in 2010... At least get us a Republican congress. Come on people, fight harder!
This is so not what I planned on writing about (see where my mind takes me late at night). I guess I will have to clear my thoughts about everything else later, cuz I’m tired and I still want to read my scriptures before I go to bed.
GOODNIGHT! Hopefully Rush and Hannity can cheer me up, although I doubt that. Don’t worry, I will be ok, I just have to sulk for a couple days, but I have to learn to live with it somehow, and I REFUSE to let them beat me!
Oh, and by the way, I’m so not sorry if you are offended in anyway. You’re either ignorant, selfish, miserable, or greedy. You pick!
4 comments:
Sara, you are such a good American. I think we can look at this whole experience in a lot of different ways. You seem to be trying to look for the silver lining in this. For me, he is definitely not the candidate I was hoping for. Of course to be honest, neither was McCain although his service to the country is extremely admirable compared to Obama's. Like you, I was a Mitt supporter and if not Mitt, I was pulling for Fred Thompson. I think they were the closest to Reagan - and if only we could have Reagan back! You're right though. This is a moment in US History that will always be remembered. Honestly, McCain, and even Mitt would've been just another President. Obama though could be viewed as up there with Reagan, Kennedy, or Roosevelt. On the other hand, he could be limited by his lack of experience and be more like Jimmy Carter. For me, even though I'm not happy about him, over half the country is. I guess the few of us who support the President right now have had our chance. President Bush was dealt a uniquely difficult hand unlike almost any other president. Hopefully history will be kinder on him than the country and the world has been for the last 6 years since 9-11. Now to make lemonade from lemons, thanks to the results yesterday, I think we've seen the last of Hillary aspiring to be President. The Clinton Era has ended as of last night. Also, if Obama is more like Carter than Kennedy or Roosevelt, the country is being set up for several great Americans to make a run for it later. While I think we've see the last of Hillary, I think it's just starting for Mitt Romney, Sarah Pallin, Bobby Jindal, Tim Pawlenty and if the country would give them a chance, Jeb Bush and Newt Gingrich. Talk about an all star cast to get a chance to run against President O-prah in 4 years! I too know that a lot of things are going to get much worse. I believe that deep down, the President Elect is a good man and will at least try to do what is right. The point is he is the President Elect. All we can do is live our lives and hope for another "Republican Revolution" in 2010 and a strong showing by one of many great possibilities for a candidate in 2012.
ROMNEY/PALLIN 2012
I just looked up "fear" in the index here's a few of the verses it cites from the D&C: 3:7 You should not fear man more than God; 30:11 do not fear what man can do; 38:30 If ye are prepared, ye shall not fear; [and my favorite] 38:15 fear not for the kingdom is yours.
A little comfort in a time of fear (at least for me)...
I'm glad to see a new post on your blog. I know when you mean about the knot in your stomach. I live in a state that did not go to Obama,so that makes me feel a little better. Still, every time I see a black person, I have not very nice thoughts. I guess we just have to prepare ourselves and our famlies. I mean, we know that it will get worse before it gets better. It's too scary to think about.
Sara, I am glad to see you had a new post. I just hope you keep them coming- hint hint! As for this post, it is obvious you are very upset at the results of the election. I have had very similar feelings as you, and have had a lot of fear for what the future holds. I know that it is going to get hard, but I also know that fear and faith can't be in your heart at the same time. We do know that these are the last days... but even so, we know that the story has a HAPPY ENDING!! Even with all of the trials that we, and even more so our children and grandchildren, will have to face, we can be happy. We can have faith that Heavenly Father is in control. Just prepare yourself and your family in every way you can to be ready for the second coming of the Lord, and you will be OK. You will be happy. Of course, I am telling you all of this so easily because I have had to tell myself this for the last few weeks, too! We love you! Natalie talks about Alyssa every day, and says how much she misses her! Come up and visit us now that the gas prices are down!! $1.46 a gallon for me yesterday. Woo hoo!
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